I'm not really sure what to put in this post.
Usually they are looks back at the year past. Well, we all know what happened this year. The major, life changing event. Rich's death will mark 2009 for me, forever.
Sometimes they are about looking forward.
I have a beautiful son, and cats, and fish, and a crayfish.
I have friends and family who love and support me.
I have a job I love. (The new head may change that, and may not, who knows.)
I have a place to live that is mine, and I love it.
I have someone who is waiting for me to be ready, and is being a wonderful friend in the meantime. He knows I may never be ready though, and I've told him not to wait forever.
I have a future.
Soemtimes they are about goals.
My goals for 2009?
Complete learning to drive and get Ellie on the road.
Have a quilt displayed.
Take time for me.
So there we are. It's been a harsh year, but there have been some excellent points. This time last year we were together, and happy. Today, I'm on my own, and my son is at his fathers. He's having him today because tomorrow he's coming back early to a family meal at Frankie and Bennys. His father and I have a good relationship that we worked on for the sake of our son. It's been a blessing, this year in particular, and even though he is a wombat at times, and I totally remember the reasons why we divorced, he's still my sons father, and I respect him for that.
As for the email that is lurking in the inbox?
It can stay there. I'll open it later. Later is good. Now isn't! I have cakes to make and decorate and so on.