Friday, April 3, 2009


Sleepy. Fab chat.

Night night!

And we're calm!

Calm calm calm calm calm calm calm.

See my calmness!

I also have a new keyboard, which is fabulous and I love it so far. It also has a trackpad on it, so I want to take it into school and try it. If it works, then I'm going to get several for school and see how they are used, and then a couple more. Basically all the Juniors will have one and be expected to use them. They are so easy! They even have a dinky little touchpad on one side. I really, really like it.

As you can tell, I've chilled out now. I'm still irritated, but I'm desparately trying to be accepting and understanding of the situation. The main thing, I think, is egocentricity. The idea that the world revolves around a person and that persons thoughts and wishes and that the rest of the world should now kow tow to their desires.

Well, it's not going to happen. R and I have decided a few things, and we don't expect the rest of the world to like them, just to accept them, the same way we accept the rest of the world when it isn't to our liking.


Ex's are ex for a reason.

Today just reminds me why, all over again.

Stupid, ignorant, selfish, demanding-but-never-giving, obnoxious and.......


and now I'm stopping, because I'm not spending any more of my day being irritated by it.

Nearly 6am.

And no.

This isn't a lie in.

The AC has had another session (although that implies lengthyness) of bad belly. This time it was only 3 times, but 3 trips in 10 minutes to poo is quite a lot.

I phoned NHSDirect (I love, love, LOVE, Britains attitude to Healthcare - I can call a doctor whenever I need to.) and had a lovely chat with a nurse who agreed with me that there isn't a lot wrong with him, it's a bit perplexing, but see how he goes over the next few days.

So far it's been Monday evening,3-3.15pm, then 4.15-4.30pm, Thursday morning,6.45-7am and now this mornin. 4.45-5am.

I just don't know. *shrug* We'll see how it goes.

I'm not feeling like going to school though, although I'll go because that's my job and we have to do the things our job wants us to do lol.

He-Ex was moaning about having to go to the job centre the other day, but life is like that - he gave up 2 perfectly good jobs prematurely. In the current job market that's just daft.

Child needs me....