Friday, July 22, 2011

Last Day of Term

Today is the last day of term.

The weather is dry, sunny, and warm.

The view from the back window is the same as two years ago, the same as last year.

The world is a very different place.  The world then was warm and loving.  The world last year was painful and confusing but hopeful.  The world this year is hopeful and although it needs bread because I forgot to pick some up (and I may use wraps instead) it is now a place where I can look forward, and not backwards.

This summer I shall mostly be sewing.

No, really!

Everyone else can get knotted for a few days/weeks/monthandahalf because, dammit, look at this.......

2011 - is now, and I am going to sew.
2010 - spent the summer cleaning J's house.  Long days, stepchild who disliked me, and so on.
2009 - no idea how I spent the summer, unless I read this, which makes me cry.  Not a good summer!
2008 - my sister got married - weirdly absorbing a lot of summer lol!
2007 - decorating here, renovating kitchen, and so on.
2006 - moving in here, cleaning old place, cleaning here, basic decorating,
2005 - Summer of AC's dad leaving.
2004 - Summer of moving to Marham from Benson
2003 - Summer of  newborn baby!

So yes, indeed, I will be sewing! (and baking, and doing laundry and so on!)

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Extended break!

It looks like the break carried on lol!

It wasn't intentional, it was just that the end of school got me.  The 2 year anniversary got me.  Life has got me.  Netmums slightly got me.  Britmums got me.  AC got me.

You all know how it goes - most of the people who read this are working mothers.  Some work in a job, some work in the home, some have no official job but have small children at home, some have none of those things but no time to sit down anyway!

I promise, normal service, or whatever passe for it around here, will be on again soon.  End of term tomorrow.....

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

BG's blog

I wrote on BG's blog last night.  I'd done her an e-card, for Independence Day, like I always have done, and on the 4th I sat and looked at it thinking "Do I send it?  If I do, will it spoil her day, rather than add to it? Will it spoil it because she will be reminded of her Daddy, or because her mother will go ballistic at the sending of it?"

So I didn't.

But I wrote on her blog, so that she knew I was thinking about her.  She isn't reading it, I know, but it's still there.

In other news, it is new intake parents evening tonight.  There are 4 new children coming to the school from the local infants, and I am having all of them, and therefore I am doing the parents evening.  It'll be lovely, because it always is, and because the new parents have chosen to come to here.  However, it'll be late, and so I'm doing sausage casserole.  Nummy!

I'm not feeling great at the moment though.  I've had a change of pill (unrequested, and courtesy of the NHS budget system!) and I'm feeling vaguely rubbish.  This is a bad thing as I have a student who is in to learn from me about teaching! Work to do now then.....


Just wanted to fling a hug out there to all you lovely peoples!


Tuesday, July 5, 2011

"We were on a BREAK!"

Not J and I, the blog and I.

We've been on a break since last week, and it's been ok.  I haven't been to any other blogs, I haven't read anywhere, I haven't written anywhere, I haven't even looked at anyone else's profile.  I may have looked at a couple of blog posts via email, but that doesn't count - we were on a break!

And then last night J read the blog.  Lots of it.  Not all of it, but lots of it.  I don't have a problem with that.   There is nothing on here that I am ashamed of, nothing I feel I need to defend, nothing that is a lie.  She-Ex has said that she will show the BG the blog one day and show her what I am like.  I told her that was fine, there is nothing here I wouldn't stand behind, and nothing I wouldn't happily talk to the BG about.  It wasn't me who cheated on my man, in any way.  It wasn't me who neglected the marriage. It wasn't me who neglected the house or the child. It wasn't me who ran away.  Rich and I did nothing wrong except be together.

I'll stand by that.

I'll stand by J and I as well.  We might have been surprised to be together, we might not have been expecting it, we might have a complicated life at times, but it is a good life and it is full to the brim of love and respect and care and appreciation and fun. (And phwoar-ness, but it's a family blog people!)  We talked afterwards, about how neither of us had ever expected to love again, and not as much as this, and not in this way.

Weirdly, I am claiming to be a very lucky girl.