Yesterday I went out and bought my 15 Advent Calendars this year.
It started when I had the boy. Of course the AC needed a calendar. I love him!
Then we had BG between us, so I always sent her an Advent Calendar, and card making things and bits. (We never did have a card she'd "made" or anything like that. Oh, the first year we had a piece of scribbled on A4 paper stuck to some green card.)
Then I became Godmother to the Most Beautiful Twin Girls in the World. They needed Advent Calendars. And I love them.
Then I became Godmother to the Most Handsome Twin Boys in the World. Technically I am only Godmother to one of them, but I have God-adopted the other twin. I love their mother too much to only send one child an Advent Calendar. And they had an older brother, so he had one. And now they have a little sister, so she has one. And I love them all.
Then I became Godmother to Lilly-bear, my brothers youngest daughter, and the spitting image of my grandmother. This year, for the first time, she has an Advent Calendar. And because I love their parents so much, I have bought them for the older children as well, who are 6 and 4 and will not understand why the 18month old has one and they don't. And I love them all.
Then I became Godmother to Lily, (check the spelling to make sure I have them the right way around!) who is Rich's best friends daughter, born after his death, although he knew that if the child was a boy, the parents wanted to call him Richard. He was so amazed and proud when he was told that. And Lily has an older sister, also who may not understand, and so she has one too. Lily gave me hope and a glimpse into the future, into the fact that there was a future, at a time when I didn't believe in one anymore. I was asked to be her Godmother when I had literally just returned from the inquest an hour before, and I held her, and P asked me, so that if I said no, I had to say it to her face. Of course I didn't - Godmotherhood is an honour and a privilege.
Last year I sent them to I-t-B's boys as well. I don't want to upset him, so I didn't get them one this year, but I want to.
I also got one for T-boy and J as well. J was really pleased! (T-boy doesn't know yet!)
I have the envelopes already to post. The parents know I will text when they are on their way. The snow may present some issues, but I'm sure the children will enjoy catching up on their calendars!
It's just BG's one, that sits on my kitchen side. I don't know if to send it. Where to send it. I could use their last known address, but would she even get it if I did send it? Somehow I doubt it.
I bought it anyway, because I love her.
All of these children are special and amazing and beautiful in their own ways. They have all given me much more than I could ever give them. I am, once more, the luckiest person.