Wednesday, March 18, 2009


I like Buzzcocks. As in "Never Mind The Buzzcocks"

I like sitting on the sofa, watching NMTB, with R.

AC is coughing upstairs tonight though. He's not sounding too good, we'll just have to see how he goes. I'm heading to bed as soon as the bread is out.

I'm babbling on here tonight. I can feel it. Some nights are like that. All random and flaky lol!

There's lots I want to sy, but partly there's child confidentiality, and partly there's the fact that if I start tonight I may not stop, because yet again there are Ex issues!

Ah well.

Home and sorted...

... I think!

Who knows with parents. I don't.

However, this evening I am about to go and change and get my body onto My Fitness Coach via the Wii Fit and see what happens. It's been a while because the ottaman has been in the way, but I've moved it upstairs, so we shall see. Not sure what I'm doing about tea yet. I'll sort it out later.

But I am still alive, thus I must have had a nice day!


And here we go again Ladies and Gentlemen!

We are up and ready hit the pixel face, challenge all comers and basically have a nice day or die in the attempt.

Should the latter happen, R will inform the Dear Readers, obviously!


Actually, I'm so flipping tired that I've come out the other side of exhausted, sunk a pint of orange squash and am flying! I'll calm down to an acceptable level around 0630.

According to a friend of mine, I should look to my Moon Sign for details of life to come.......


I got distracted.

But my aura is a blue one apparently!

Stupid am!

This is stupid o'clock in the morning, even for me. It's around 2.30am and I can't sleep.

Not only that, but I can't say why I can't sleep, even on a blog read by people I don't know lol!

It's one of those times when life just wipes me out for a moment, and then I know I'll get back up and start again, just like I always do, but right now, it's the middle of the night, and I'm down here being upset because it'll get it out of the way before I have to see other people. R knows I'm upset, and is so supportive. It's amazing to feel that from someone in my life. I don't want the AC knowing I'm upset. He has other things to worry about at his age.

Being 5 should be, and is for the AC, about playing, building things, learning new things, and enjoying life. He bakes, he builds, he creates, he reads, he writes, he gets on with just *being*, which is a state I would love to spend time in, and will do in a couple of weeks! I don't want him knowing Mummy is tired by work and stressed by life in general, unless he can see a positive outcome to it. He knows Mummy and R both work hard, because working hard brings home the money that pays the bills, and he knows bills get paid before treats, because treats can be anything but bills are always there! And at 5, I think that's all he needs to know. He works for his pocket money (he unloads the dishwasher!) so that he learns early on that there is a reason to have a job and not just sit around on your backside all day claiming benefits.

He's a lovely boy. Just thinking about him, and the way he is with R, and the way *our* life is working out, just makes me smile! It's all the rest of the stuff that is not so good! Never mind.

I keep saying never mind, and mostly I don't, but sometimes I do. I think sometimes we all do.

Back to bed, to snuggle and at least lie there with a supportive dead weight wrapped around me whilst I ponder the problems of the age.