Tuesday, September 21, 2010

no teaching today!

I have the day off!

Well.  Hardly.
 I have the beginnings of a cold and a thumping headache.  We have very little food in the house.  I have a thousand tonnes of work to do (that's imperial tonnes, not metric ones)  I have a mental countdown going on in my head.  I smell.

On the other hand.....

I have the morning on ICT monitoring time and the afternoon on PPA, as is usual on a Tuesday. We have plenty of money in the bank for us (hurrah for insurance finally coming through!)  I have love to support me though the mental countdown.  We have a lovely shower.

This whole Pollyanna thing is still harder than it looks sometimes, but it's getting easier.

This time last year (2009) I was talking about Proverbs.

I am settling into our new life, new routines, new things.

I miss the old one.

But there is Proverbs 17:22 I heard the other day.

"A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones."

And it drieth the bones of all around it as well. I didn't let the world break my spirit when I was with him and it tried, and I won't let it break me when he's not here.

The post also talked about me getting to phone BG, which I was never allowed to do in the end.

the year before?  2008 was about love and planning a baby together.  It's all good, in so many ways now.  What am I supposed to do?  Cry forever?  I have a son, and I can't indulge that.  

I'm having my happy ending, dammit Janet.....

1 comment:

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You nicely summed up the issue. I would add that this doesn’t exactly concenplate often. xD Anyway, good post…