Monday, May 17, 2010

10 months

10 months ago today, right now, Rich was upstairs.  All "warm and gorgeous" I said.  10 months ago I had got out of bed, paused to watch him sleep, just for a moment, like I always did, and come down to get things done down here. 

Just like today.  Except that today, the person asleep in the massive bed upstairs isn't Rich, (and no, it's not the AC either) and I have an irrational fear of him going to work.  He doesn't have a bike, he doesn't use the same route Rich did, for all he works at the same place.  But today, I just want him to stay at home, with the AC, so neither of them get hurt,

And that, Dear Reader, is somewhat ridiculous.  It's daft.  It's irrational, illogical, and entirely in my head.  I am in danger of becoming a Marvin.  (for those poor, poor souls who never read Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, that's Marvin, the Paranoid Android)


Utterly, utterly lol.

You will have no idea why I'm lol-ing, but I am.  There I am, in the midst of a Marvin moment (with tears, but no snot) when I *hear* the beginning of the radio version in my head.

Like this.

"This is the story of ‘The Hitch-Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy’. Perhaps the most remarkable, certainly the most successful book, ever to come out of the great publishing corporations of Ursa Minor. More popular than ‘The Celestial Homecare Omnibus’, better selling than ‘Fifty-Three More Things To Do In Zero Gravity’, and more controversial than Oolon Colluphid’s trilogy of philosophical blockbusters: ‘Where God Went Wrong’, ‘Some More Of God's Greatest Mistakes’, and ‘Who Is This God Person Anyway?’. And in many of the more relaxed civilizations on the outer eastern rim of the galaxy, the ‘Hitch Hiker's Guide’ has already supplanted the great ‘Encyclopaedia Galactica’ as the standard repository of all knowledge and wisdom. Because although it has many omissions, contains much that is apocryphal - or at least wildly inaccurate - it scores over the older, more pedestrian work in two important ways: first, it is slightly cheaper, and second, it has the words ‘Don’t Panic’ inscribed in large, friendly letters on the cover."

Don't panic.

Thankyou Rich, point taken.

Love you.  I'm going to bin out the rest of this negative post and go off to make pack ups.




large friendly letters.


Maybe I should change the title of this post to "A trip on the emotional rollercoaster that is anniversaries" 

LOL :-)


Chef Penny said...

It didn't sound irrational to me. Toward the end it sounded a little like you had been drinking but not irrational. lol Seriously, kudos for recognizing it for what it was and for bravely going forward anyway. You are a better woman than me! I would have locked them in their bedrooms and not let them out until tomorrow. :) ((((hugs)))))

s'me said...

Not drinking lol! (Not at *that* time in the morning!)

Very emotional day in the end.

Chef Penny said...

But you trudged through it and that's all that matters! Now, get a drink and forget it. lol